Someone in my family recently asked me about the ‘why’ of doing big day hikes, and that seems to be a reasonable question to consider at the start of a photoessay about hiking the 31-mile Pemigewasset Loop in a day. Traversing over 8 of New Hampshire’s most spectacular 4,000 footers, the loop requires about 9,000 feet of elevation gain on top of the mileage, and thus a voracious appetite for hiking is necessary, regardless of whether you choose to do it in a day, or more. It’s also complicated, as I sit at home struggling to go up and down my stairs, to try and tell you that I am just a glutton for punishment. What follows is my argument for why I think that it is fun to hike that much, and photo evidence to prove it…
The easiest and most basic reason, is just the pure aesthetic of being in the mountains. Layer upon layer of ridge lines receding into the horizon, or the unusual weather always interacting with light in marvelous and brand new ways, it just looks good, and I want to get out there to see it. Also, by choosing to do a lot of miles, it kind of is a back handed way to force myself to wake up at 2AM to be able to see the sunrise on the first peak. A brief consolation for the punishment I am about to subject myself to.
By traversing several miles of trail and coming to a viewpoint, I like to be given an overview of the ground I’ve just covered, and this visualization is a powerful grounding force for me. It is both humbling to see the vastness of the planet laid out, and empowering to consider how far I’ve come. I don’t think we are often granted that opportunity in other parts of our lives, so the sensation fascinates me.
Some might also expect me to say something like, “since I like hiking so much, why wouldn’t I hike all the time?” Well, you wouldn’t be wrong, and that is certainly part of it, but it’s more complicated than that. If you’ve ever walked for a while before, you likely understand that it can start to hurt, and sometimes, a lot. Especially the more you do. There is something of a ‘point of diminishing returns’ with hiking, and yet I still find myself going way beyond that. There have been times where I’ve hiked so much that I have actually injured myself from the overuse of my knees, ankles, and hips. I can’t really tell you why I do this, but I have a sense that it has a root in the lessons learned from challenging oneself and learning from mistakes. I’ve gotten better at preparing to hike these distances so that they aren’t beyond my fitness level, and each trip seems to become something of a meditation on emotional struggle, that prepares me for the next bigger and ‘badder’ adventure, or maybe even in wrestling something in my personal life.
I am fortunate to spend a lot of my life in my comfort zone, where my basic needs are met, I feel safe, and I feel a part of a community, still we all come to turning points that challenge and threaten to break us. Thus I fully appreciate having the privilege to take advantage of the beautiful landscape around me, and head out there in search of ways in which I can put myself under pressure, and then learn from how my body and mind reacts to distress. I couldn’t tell you if it truly works, because life is often throwing curve balls, but it helps to have moments to reflect on what I’m capable of, that might inspire me to push on.
Finally, community is often one of my strongest motivations in life, and meeting people out on the trail and sharing in those experiences feels like the output that brings all of this icky self-gratification into a shared space of affirmation and familiarity. I made some quick friends on this trip, saw a few old friends as well, and talked to dozens of tired and excited people, all out there humping themselves over rocks and mud puddles, each for their own damn reason. If that ain’t beautiful, what is?
This journey and the accompanying photographs were taken on land indigenous to the Abenaki and Wabanaki communities.
They are still fighting for their full rights as nations and stewards on their own land.